my name is…

i want to change my english name. most asian can pick their own english name and me too. at a certain age, our english teacher would ask us to have an english name. why a chinese would need an english name? i dont’ know. anyway, most of our parents don’t know many english so this important task would give back to their child. so i have this unlucky chances to name myself.

i remember i was “diana” when i was… nine years old. i thought this name was beautiful but later princess diana died and there was a local drama about a man who dressed up as a woman named diana. the kids made fun of me because of that. because of peer pressure, i picked another name. “karin”? but later i found that my cousin’s name was calrin and i didn’t want to have the same name so i decided to change my name again. one day i was flipping a magazine and saw a model called “jenya”. i was on my “english name hunt” and was frustrated because i couldn’t find one that i liked. “that’s it!” i thought, “my name will be jenya from now on!” people i met in rp world kept commenting “you’re name is awesome/original!” but the way i found this original name was quite unoriginal.

i like this name, but i don’t like this name at the same time. my real life friends won’t call me by my english name. they thought this name is weird. why? i think it’s super easily to pronounce! “JEN-yah” how hard is it? but one thing has been bothering me is that, it’s a russian name. (two things, actually)and there is a (quite famous, i guess?) nude model (you know what i mean by saying ‘nude model’?). is it okay to have a name that isn’t from your origin? but hmm… what i am talking about? there is no way that i could have a so-called chinese origin english name D:

my surname is lee, which i believe adds the difficulty to find a name that match with my surname. for example, i should never, ever name “lindsay”. cause “lindsay lee” sounds like cantonese “strangle you” (phonogram? is that what it called?) names with “___say” or “___ly” aren’t suitable for me. i mean, “lily” is a nice name, but “lily lee”? x\ screw my surname. i don’t think jenya and lee matches well either.

i’ll be going to a new school this semester. that’s why i’ve been thinking if i need a new english name… any suggestion? or should i just keep the name jenya?

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